happy happy :D

Back at uni Tuesday. I guess i cant be off forever although i have enjoyed being off but at the same time looking forward to getting back into a routine again.Looks like i might be quitting my job soon. I have worked there for way too long but theres a job going at my mums place,be the same kinda work but not as stressful and not late at night either Mum meant to be bringing an application form soon. Think it would involve me working a saturday & sunday probz start around 11 and finish around 5.Ahh can’t wait to leave the shithole im working in although have been lucky cos have had the last two weekends off. Last one cos i wasnt feeling well and the other one i had booked off. Think my uncle and his fiance are coming over later to go out for a family meal,shame i was ill last weekend cos cud proababley have called in sick but oh well. Probz will have to wait abit to hand my notice in but only gotta give in a weeks notice ahh im soo happy means i can go to bed at a decent time and be able to eat!

Timetable seems abit skuwif but i prefer half days than full ones definitely

Another rant

Christmas is a time to be with your family,guess my sister dont understand that. But im not just talking about christmas… i saw her on xmas day which was friday and havent seen her since.Im getting kind of sick of her tbh…i guess at the start i did envy her,the fact she could go see her boyfriend whenever she wanted but not anymore.I’ll be nice to her when i see her tonight,thats if she keeps her word about coming home by 9pm.Just getting sick of how she treats mum & dad like she can come and go as she pleases. My dads really getting annoyed about this,think my mothers just too soft on her. It just would be nice if she didnt have to stay at his all the damn time,tbh i doubt it will last i mean if shes not working she’s usually with him unlike me and richie who doesnt each other as often as we like,we will last cos we arent in each others pockets I mean, hopefully if we do decide to get a place,i doubt i could get sick of him ^^

SOOO SICK OF….

messing things up,its no wonder. I guess i havent had much luck with men and im finally happy with someone,yet i seem to mess things up which im really not liking about myself at all at the moment.Im sure he could find someone way better so im on low. I thought being with someone,all the silly mistakes were behind guess not. I hate how i keep upsetting him i dont mean to. Guess i am finding it abit difficult with the distance but thats not it, i dunno what it is . . . i guess he feels like he’s always gonna come last. Guess i need to find a balance between him and my friends. Havent really had to before…well hopefully when he wants to talk to me,we can sort it out cos i hate fighting. I dont want him to feel like he dont matter cos he does believe me.

Well the most recent thing ive done which has kinda ticked him off is well Monday i had a really bad cold,actually i had it sunday night and i had a really bad sore throat but i just thought nothing of it.Then Monday all i did was sneeze and felt kinda yucky tbh, so stayed in cos needed the rest what with being in work at five the next day. Tuesday i felt abit better but still sneezing, and i told my parents i hadnt really recovered from the 3 shifts i done at the weekend so my dad rang up to tell them i wasnt coming in. & because i didnt he got kinda funny with me, couldnt tell till his update and messaging him on facebook,saying he thort i needed the money and couldnt understand why i didnt go in. But the real reason i didnt go in was cos i got told that i might get sent home if wasnt  busy which ticked me off cos i didnt see the point in going in just to be told to go home,what a pointless journey. Yes i do need the money but im hardly gonna go in if i didnt feel a 100% which i didnt and didnt see the point in going in when there was a possibility of being sent home. I hate upsetting him,i never seem to be able to do anything right nowadays i reeally hate that,am beating myself up cos in a perfect word i wouldnt have been working at xmas and would have been able to see him.

Lately….

it seems all i do is go to uni,library,come home,do more uni work,work at weekends >.< gah no social life it seems sometimes like this week for instance thats pretty much all ive done. I would have maybe gone out at least one day out this week but cos i pretty much worked all weekend that didnt give much chance to do any work Ah well after friday i get two weeks off altho i probabley will do some work but wanna try and get it all done if i can. Then gonna hand it all in on the 4th and then probz will have the rest of the week off (i hope^^)

Not looking forward to them two weeks though,probz be working most of it well hopefully i will know come saturday or maybe tomorrow when i ring up for my hours >.< i hope i have at least one day off, did want xmaz off but if i have to work i’ll work it not much i can do really,guess its more money.

At the moment i am just chilling out,but probz will get back to the uni work altho ive only really worked on one sketchbook today. Guess ive got tomoro night and friday to work on it,dont really wanna work on it at the weekend if i can help it gah.

UPDATE*

Im not even sure who reads this,but i dont care really i just like having something i can just say what i want. Its nice,anyway yeah i always seem to like forget i ever have this.

A few things have happened within my life :

1) I finally met Richie! It was quite weird,i mean we’ve been talking for ages & ages and ok i would have liked to have met someone when ive been out but cos im living it at home thats proven difficult.Plus i can never tell if guys like me when they are pissed or horny. But yeah i met him 2 weeks ago in Brum. I wasnt nervous i was more nervous about the wedding i was photographying than that hehe. Yeah he was sweet tho i mean he wasnt too sure if i wanted to be held or kissed but i did get one when he was catching his train. Not a bad meet up i mean we got on really well

2) I have a boyfriend(although it does suck he doesnt live near me but just have to make most of the holz) yeah you guess its Richie lol. Its weird i never would have thought. . . i mean this to happen. I guess its not bad him leaving abit far away guess he cant get sick of me and when we do see each other we’ll be like all over each other hehe XD

I saw him yesterday in burton,we went for some food then cinema lol. I was expecting it to be packed but it wasnt,so we could uh make out like crazy which i thoroughly enjoyed although his hands did wander but i guess he’s allowed to We saw the vampire’s assistant …we were kinda watchin it at the start but then we kinda start making out and when he starting kissing my neck i was like fuck…i now know my turn on spot and plus kissin me did that Ohh man cannot wait till next weeek…. i want the kissing again so badly now.

I cannot waitttttt !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time for an update . . .

Yeah its beeen awhile since i posted anything on here,so thought it was time for an update on things going on in my life.

Well first things first. Ive been back at uni for abit 3 weeks now and was abit overwhelming when were given module briefs for projects. i was kinda panicking but after discussing what we are meant to do,it doesnt seem alot now. I guess ive just gotta try the hardest possible because this time round it counts towards my degree.
Ive actually got a website but its not finished yet. Im shooting some work on Wednesday morning thanks to Sarah & Abi just some studio portraits,obviously gonna use my gorgeous new camera Canon 450d. Yeah i didnt buy it off that guy,i thought why when i can get it for the same price new,plus ive got insurance on the camera for at least 3yrs so if anything goes wrong i can get it fixed. Ive also got a macro lens :AF70-300m F/4-5.6 which ive read up on you use for like closeups.
OOhh and something else…..Im photographying a wedding!!! excited much! Yeah i woz texting an old friend back from college and she was like i think i could help you with your photography,i was like yeah and she mentioned about this weddings shes got to photograph and would i be interested in helping her. of course i jumped at the chance,i mean ive never photographed a wedding and the images would definitely look great on my website . So yeah cant wait for that,its the halloween weekend which ive booked off anyway gonna try and get myself a tripod to avoid camera shake. Plus im gettin paid for these pictures i take at the wedding awsome!

Y’know awhile back i mentioned richie and how he had stop talking to me cos he thort it was easier? well…he got in touch with me. I noticed a text off him,after a late night at work i was kinda suprised and thort maybe he had text me in error but no the text message read that he hoped i was ok and uni was going well.He actually wasnt expecting a reply but cos it was him replied. & i guess the reason he mainly got in touch was cos he missed me,he missed our chats…tbh i was actually starting to forget about him which was kinda hard.especially when you have been chatting to someone for sooo long and then they shut you out without saying anything beforehand which comes a complete shock to you and ok im rambling i doubt anyone will read this but this is kinda for my benefit.
Soo yeah we started chatting again,it felt like old times that i missed! Because we have been chatting for so long beforehand,we kinda got to the stage where like we are wanting more than just msn convos so yeah i might be meeting him soon. Hes actuallly gonna meet me in Telford,im kinda looking forward to it tho whenever that is At the moment im on high,i feel sooo happy that we’re talking again.But yeah love life at the moment so who knows,maybe they’ll be something to this,depends on how we react when we see each other in the flesh lol. I will keep you all posted about this.

Shopping!!!!

I met up with someone from uni today (Magda) who i hadnt seen in awhileee!Yep so she asked me if i wanted to join her & im glad i did because i bought :

Closeup of the hat,gotta love !

Ive also got these coming:

Pre-ordered the new PARAMORE Album

Supernatural Series 3 (which should be arriving tomoro ) only on the begining of series 2 but thoughtt id get it anyway lol!

Final Destination 3D/Boots Interview

I didnt actually think i would be doing anything today…but see my friend Coral is on her own with and her husband visiting some friends in London. So we arranged to go to the cinema after finishing work of course. I arrived in wolvo around 4ish and we caught the 599 bus to bentley bridge.We hadnt actually decided on a film,but cos i had paid to obviously to come over to her,Coral said i could choose what we saw.
Ive seen most of the Final Destination films so i was intrigued to see it,i know Coral had already seen it but she didnt mind. After we got a drink and popcorn to share,we made our way to the screen.

I liked how it was in 3D,spending the whole film wearing them cool glasses which guess you might think they are sunglasses but you cant use them as that.Yeah made objects feel closer like they were coming at you and the people too. I did enjoy it though.The guy who died at the bottom of the swimming pool was kinda quite cute altho the fact the only last thing he sed he wanted to do before he died was get lucky dear dear.

We got out abit before seven.The cinema back in telford is Odeon and is so different.When went to screen 6 for the showing,it reminded me of the theatre except of course instead of a stage there was a big screen lol.Anyways,we headed back to the bus stop,to catch the 599 bus which took 20mins. Coral told me that Renate & Ida were going to Cheekys and said that i’d be welcome to come along. But i didnt have any clothes with me let alone a toothbrush.I hate not having a toothbrush.Waking up the next day where your breath stinks and your teeth dont feel smooth when in contact with your tongue.Ew.
Plus my straighteners,and i had a feeling i hadnt go my Provisional with me which i use for ID and knowing me they would probabley ask for it cos i dont have it.
I probabley would have gone out had i know and today i may have felt slightly rough,who knows what could have happened? But theres always next week FRESHERS!

I managed to get the 7:25 train back to Telford and then had to wait abit for the bus back to my house(8:20) i was back home around quarter to 9.As soon as i got in though i tucked into my salad.

Your probabley realising why ‘boots interview’ is in the title…well i shall tell ya. Thursday I got an email off boots cos i think i was on jobcentreplus (im always looking on there when i remember to) and i noticed that there were advertizing for christmas vacancies in Wolverhampton. So me thinking i wouldnt be successful i applied online via the website,filled out the required details and didnt think about it again. Anyway… yes i recieved an email confirming my application had been received and would be contacted if i was required for an interview. Well lucky me,i got an email back sayin i had been successful and they wanted me to go in for an interview.
The interview process i think requires a few exercises to see of course if im right for the job. I booked my interview slot which is 23rd (weds) 4pm-5pm which should roughly take 35mins. I know i probz maybe in uni but if worse comes to the worse,im sure they’d let me go early. OOh and ive gotta to be dressed smartly & i know exactly what i should wear. Black trosaurs,white shirt,blazer and either my boots or some black shoes.

I will probabley write again about this and tell you how the experience was etc. Even if i dont get it,at least i will know if future boots jobs come up i know kinda what to expect.

Canon 450D :)

Yes,im finally getting myself a decent DSLR. Im buying it off this guy,Chris who is on my course and is sellin it for £500.It’s in mint condition,with a spare battery comes along with the lens etc. Gotta wait till September like but who cares? Apparantly its reali good.Cant wait to try it out and get my hands on it! Might treat myself to a fisheye lens for it and some other things for it tooo

LOVE Contest((Ida Pida))

NOTE: This photo i found across some old albums whilst clearing out my wardrobe. Can i just say i didnt take the original but i took a photo of this photo via my digital so guess you could say i did take this! This is a photo of me when i was ickle baby,here you can  see me(duh!) and my mother cradling me in her arms,whilst giving me a bottle of milk. I chose this to enter this contest as it shows unconditional love, a love between a mother and her baby- and the responsability the mother has as a baby depends on this.